It is 10:15 pm my time and I can’t stop thinking that there is something wrong with me. I have this obsession with food, not healthy food, but every other kind of food. I go shopping and buy things that look good and end up way over eating. I cant help it either. Just knowing that there is something good sitting in my kitchen waiting to be eaten really gets to me. Part of the reason why I over eat is because I get bored and the other part is the “I don’t know” part. Im not depressed or unhappy. In fact I am really happy. I just had a baby in February and he is a beautiful healthy baby.
So the question in why in gods name do I eat non stop? And why in the hell do I OVER eat? Well I don’t know the answer to that. Is there a mental illness that I may have? Well if you have any suggestions please chime in and let me know! (if anyone is reading this that is.)
Since I cant answer my questions and don’t know what to do about them I am going to try losing weight with the help of this. Blogging. And hopefully I will get some followers who will support me!
I am going to start this weight loss journey with telling the world my weight and height. This is scary to me because usually I lie about my weight because I am so self conscience about it. But here it goes!
My height is 5feet 2inches. (this is the variable that I can not change but wish I could)
Now here comes the big one….
My weight is 207.3lbs.… scary huh?!
So now that you know my height and weight I can begin the journey! I am going to weigh myself at the end of every week. I am going to write about everything I did, everyday. I will tell you everything I eat. Hopefully my followers can give me suggestions along my way. Now remember I do have a 3.5 month old son who takes up a lot of my day so I am a little bit lazy… rocking him and snuggling him in all! But I am going to try my hardest to lose weight! I was 156lbs before the pregnancy (which was mostly due to partying every night and going on drunken TocoBell runs). My ideal goal weight is in the 140’s and anything lower would be amazing!
Oh yeah, I guess I should tell you that I am 20years old.
It is now 10:40pm and I am going to pump my breasts for milk for my child and feed him then head to bed. I have a huge journey ahead of me and can use all the sleep I can get (thank the lord my son sleeps through the night already)!
Good night all.
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